What Can I Say?

My thoughts only ever trouble me
and my reasoning burdens me
My heart closes off
and my eyes no longer see

The things that I allow into my heart
That steal my peace
That steal my joy
...and yet... You're still there beside me

Waiting for me to notice You
Waiting for me to trust You
Wanting me to turn to You

You do not push
You do not force Your way in
You patiently wait,
Wait, for me to invite You in

I keep trying to understand
I keep trying to comprehend
I keep trying to fight my way in
I keep thinking, "I mush hold up my end."

You told me
You confirmed for me
You directed me
You provided for me

Yet still I doubted You,
I tried to rely on my own strength and efforts
And when I came to the end of myself
You were there with Your comfort

I do not understand You
Your ways are a mystery to me
I cannot fathom the depths of Your love
Nor why You ever choose me

So many have betrayed my trust
So many have let me down
Yet not one moment have You faltered
Not one moment have You let me down

Even when I forget You
You never forget me
I have been such a trail
You have been only loving

I am nothing!
You are everything!
And still You choose
to make Your home with me

You are my God!
You are my Lord!
You are my King!
You are my Sword!

You are my Love!
You are my Grace!
You are my Shield!
You are my Strength!

You are my Hope!
You are my Provider!
You are my Righteousness!
You are my Redeemer!

You alone are worthy!
Worthy of all honor and praise!
You alone are Father!
-The Father Who is familiar with all of my ways

You alone are near to the brokenhearted
Only You can heal the sick
You alone give hope to the hopeless
Only You can raise up the afflicted

I may never fully understand
why You ever loved me
Words are too small, but...
I truly do thank Thee