The World is in His Hands, & Yet He Still Makes Time for Me.

These past few weeks have been very stressful for me. I've been so anxious for money. As seen in previous blogs I got the money to go to the M.E. a month before time to go, and now here I am a month before time to leave, and I had no money.

In the past, whenever the Lord withheld money from me it was because He needed my attention. Each time it turned out I needed to pray for someone or something, forgive someone, or accept a challenge of some kind. So, naturally these past few months I've been asking God what I needed to do, who do I need to pray for or forgive, or what!!!! But He had remained silent through it all as I just focused on work and trying to figure out my plans for my return to the States.

One of my leaders asked me if I had considered that perhaps God wanted me to stay in the M.E longer for a purpose. I was immediately horrified, as I am anxious to return to my home and unfinished projects in England. A delayed return to the States meant a delayed return to England. My verbal response was, "I need to spend some time with God." So, I went away and prayed, asking God if that's what He wanted. His only response was, "I want to listen to our song." (Yes. My Father and I have a special song.)

So, I went and got my iPod, laid on the floor and played it. As always, I envision dancing with my
Father. Time past, and I ended up spending a few hours into the late evening with Him. I had not received any answers, but my heart was at peace. I had a good evening with my Father, and that's all I really needed for that time. The concern for money was still there, but the anxiousness was gone.

The next morning I received a message from a friend that they had sent money. They had been planning to for a couple of weeks, but felt the Lord wanted them to get deposited that day. I checked and found $1,000 USD in my PayPal. Oddly enough, though I was in awe, I wasn't really surprised. And in my heart I felt Him say to me, "I just wanted to spend time and dance with My daughter."

He didn't want to challenge me. He didn't need me to intercede or forgive anyone in particular for the moment. He didn't have a task or mission in mind. He simply missed spending time with me.

How blessed I am to have such a loving Father, Who not only will provide for my every need and help me throughout every moment of my life, but Who also loves sharing little moments and special memories with me. Forgive me, Father, when I get so task focused I neglect to spend time with You. Thank You so much for getting my attention and slowing me down long enough to rest in You. My hopes is that, in sharing this story with you, that you will be encouraged to know that there is a God Who loves you deeply, Who longs for your love and time, and Who will take care of you if you let Him. Just as He has always watched out through me, I know He watches out for you. Trust Him, lean into Him, and He will give you rest.